DON'T RAIN ON MY PARADE !

"Remember... people only rain on your parade because they're jealous of your sun and tired of their shade."

It’s good to know who we can or cannot trust when it comes to positive things happening in our lives and who we can always count on celebrating our success and happiness with. I blocked anyone else from my life that offered me nothing positive in the forms of friendship and who would just rain on my parade. If those blocked people are going out of their way to find out what you and I are doing without our need to say a thing and they are still offended, there is nothing I can really say except they bring their own disappointments in life. If you want something bad enough go out and get it.

Dan gue merasa kasian dengan orang yang seperti itu, segitu hampa nya kah hidup nya sampai harus memendam rasa iri terlalu dalam di hati, oh come on. Jealous so much, huh?

peace

I deserve happiness. I’ve worked through a lot of darkness to be where I am. 

It’s not my fault that you can’t see your own in your life.

It’s not my fault that you don’t know how to integrate your darkness.

It’s not my fault that you don’t know how to turn straw into gold.

I forget how to feel

I forget how to feel..

Happy Birthday Papa

Did you know about the safest place in the world? It’s
your shoulders! On your Birthday today, I wish to thank you for every single
thing you’ve done for me in life, every single smile you’ve given me,
every single tear that you’ve gulped on my behalf.
Wishing you a very Happy Birthday today!

Happy birthday papa 

I love you.. from your lil daughter Rita Amalia

LARI !

LARI !

Berlari dengan sangat cepat ke barat

Sia-sia . . .

Sang fajar terus mengejar ku

Aku terus berlari dan berlari

berharap kegelapan tidak mengejarku . . .

If

If things are happening according to my wish, I am lucky. But if they are not, I am very lucky, because they are happening according to Allah's wish :)

sick and tired

I won't run from you. So many promises, and you broke them all, I'll forgive, but I can't forget, You know you're a fake, but I just can't take no more, 'Cause I'm tired of it.

I'm so tired, so tired, Sick and tired of it all.

You turn the truth, then you turn your back, You're a victim of yourself, The hate remains, the hurting still exists. I'm so tired of it all.

A little late for all the things you didn't say. I'm not sad for you , But I'm sad for all the time I had to waste, 'Cause I learned the truth 

'Cause I'm sick and tired, Of always being sick and tired.

I lost my peace of mind, Somewhere along the way. 

Think, All the things that you say!  What are the things that you mean! What are the things that you say to me!

Oh… God

I don’t know what really happened to me L

I want to disappear from the crowd alive. Many problems that are being hit around me..

Maybe I just feel annoyed, annoyed with everything.

I'm so tired, sick and tired,
So damn tired, sick and tired of it all

and now you've finally found

everything you wanted and needed in me

i don't have the heart to hurt you

it's the last thing i want to do

but i don't have the heart to love you

not the way you want me to

inside i'm dying to see you crying

how can i make you understand ?

i care about you, so much about you

you're so trusting  and open

hoping that love will start

but i don't have the heart

You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
You give it all
And you give yourself away

”I'm finding it hard to do anything 
you see I feel sad when you're sad “

Who would've believed that you were part of dream?

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find. Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me and you see...

I'm gonna get stronger

I'm gonna be ok

I'll be ok

Listen, everything happens for a reason,

everything happens for a reason

I can't reign
Without you
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same

All I need is you 

I'll take blame
But I can't accept that we're estranged
If you're not here, I'm paralyzed

I can't look, I'm so blind
I lost my heart, I lost my mind

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, GIRL !!!

I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, boy,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.

That's Why. . .

I really don’t have a motive for writing this post.

Lately I’m very sad. Why? Ok you guys don’t need to know about this.

 If I’m sad I usually update status, although only just writing emote sadness or crying. And I think it’s fair among teenagers at this time. And of course my friends give comments on my status, yeah they ask standard questions like “why?” “what’s going on?” “tell me please!!”.

And I’m very lazy to answer those questions. Why?

Because I already now what they say, like “oh” “don’t be sad!” “be patient!” “spirit!” and I think it doesn't make me happy.

They know that I’m sad enough for me, they don’t need to know the reason why I’m sad.

I don’t know why I like this, I just wanted to share a story if I was happy and angry, but if I was sad, I better stay quite and trying to smile, sometimes if I was in a place where there is only me, I cried.

But not for people who suffer the same fate with me. I might share with her/him because she/he also felt the same way with me.

But after all the comments from my friends has made me realize that they care about my situation. Hmm thank you    

                                                J

yeah, i'm so sad

My stress levels are OD right now, Seriously, I wanna go to place where I can scream loudly and no one complain.

I try so hard not to be sad sometimes because I know that I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams. I just want so much more for myself.

I'm kind of proud of myself, but at the same time, I'm also hurt, dissapointed and upset. Not to mention, I blame myself.

Update status like this à L

 And after a few moments later my friends are wondering what had happened to me. And they give encouragement to me. I want to thank everyone for the lovely messages. Love you all J

But I’m sorry I’m still sad L